new and improved mushroom boy @myconidiosyncrasy@redroo.ml

yo what's up i'm tristan. i am trying my best.

i really like mushrooms and also onions and you know, other things like that such as snails and moss and homemade pickles and frogs.

i live in the pnw and i make props and stuff for a living. i have(1) cat and (1) partner.

i'd list some of my favorite books/movies/video games but idk which ones are embarrassing to like at this point so u can unlock that lore piece by piece as we socialize

hey quick heads up for new followers; i'm adhd af and it makes me bad at remembering to cw things. i'm slowly improving, and i do cw explicit stuff (lewd, gore) and any abuse/assualt ments, but i may forget other stuff. i understand that this is not compatible w/ some people's needs so i won't be offended if u 1) request a cw for smthn, or 2) block/unfollow. stay safe!

like weirdly enough i think ppl do express discomfort at what i say from time to time but it's 99% likely to bc like, that that amount of openess and honesty is uncomfortable for them. but my brain always instantly interprets it as "oh they think you said something purposefully creepy or mean or suck-uppy" or something and idk why. anyway lmao

for instance,
me: *sees friend wearing a really nice shirt*
me: hey nice shirt!
me, inexplicably, to myself for the rest of the day: oh my god she thinks i was hitting on her

me: is compulsively earnest and genuine about how i feel, even when it's unwarranted
also me: despite the fact that all evidence points to me just being compulsively talkative and honest, i am 100% certain what i said will be interpreted as an attempt to imply or acquire x thing

without you
it's no fun
it's like a total eclipse of the sun

"you were a rock but i took you for granite"

sorry i'm sad now. it's super selfish to be angry at an entire industry for not needing the skillset i can provide it but that's where i am lmao

it's so heartbreaking that like, we have so fucking many different artistic mediums to choose from. and the various combinations between them are basically infinite. but art is controlled by money so the cheapest medium, regardless of how it suits the art being created, will always win out

i actually love 3d art. i love working with it and i think 3d artists are amazing and there's some truly fucking mind blowing 3d video games and animations out there. what kills me about it is that's it's..... everything

oh god please tread on me

sorta bites to like. actually be really fucking good at some stuff but then be terrible at most other things and know there were times and places where you couldve really made a go at that shit ur gr8 at but now ur gonna be forced to settle for one of the many things u suck at lmao

like there was a very very low chance i could break into that anyway despite it catering to all my fucking skills and interests and having literal years of exp in it, just in a different industry but now, that chance is 0 lmao

low key Really Fucking Pissed at myself for not realizing like maybe, a year earlier that prop/set/sfx was what i really fuckin wanted to do bc we just entered what's gotta be the hardest fucking time period in history to get a job in the film industry

i wanna make monsters........

imagine if u will........... how fucking gorgeous it would have been if it was practical effects

hnnnnggggggg the monster from the ritual, the design, the [chefs kiss] silhouette